我被否定了？

不知道该如何去说，为什么我做什么在别人的眼里总是不对，不正确的？是，我不够世故，我不够老练。但是又能如何呢？我总是吃亏，是！吃亏就被人欺负了，怎么了？我心里没什么想法，他/她占我便宜又能如何？多活2年，还是多了些钱？什么都不会！

每天我都头疼，我求过谁，我知道谁也没有办法帮我，什么药都吃了，什么方法都试过了，但是仍然很头疼，我又能如何？！还不是得一片一片的吃去痛片，忍不住的时候，偷偷的哭，谁又能帮我？！真的想一死了之，再也不会头疼了，再也不会心烦了，真的很希望有一天自己骑着车出事故，要么撞死我，要么让我成植物人，那有多好啊，那有多美丽啊！什么都不用去想，什么婚姻，房子，都不用去想了，赶紧结束了自己吧。

Everyday I’m so painful! What I need is you care, ask, support me! NOT complain!YES, of course, I’m a man, many things depends on me, Yes, I can’t run away, I know that I must face them in the name of MAN! Yes, that’s responsibility. I understand it!

This’s a fair world! Please don’t deny it! Some people can get everything they wants, Some people can’t. But please look at the result! Who win the game? Don’t break the rule! Otherwise, you get nothing!nothing!

You understand what is human much more than me. I’ve to admit you. Perhaps the lonely world is fit for me. Maybe I am not the one!

Maybe Cuijian is right, I can’t understand what it changed fast!